Lovey Dovey Dreary Child

well as you all should but don't know...today is the day of my birth minus 15 years...therfore i am 15. is this not the best thing ever? BUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! i hate this! i'm at my motehrs work and this is ok i suppose. for prezants i got 50$ plus 25$ tahst liek 32$'s or something right? um i guess and um the last 2 johnny comics and daves shirt only it's not dave's shirt..it's mine now um..i got some pants...... and some sneakers...and a game..'_' but i donno if i chouls be happy bout the game..and i got cake but motehr wouldn't let me eat it at 5 30 in the morning...she said i had to hurry and get to her work....the people at her work are ok i guess...every one had food...i get we get to eat it at 11 and right now it's almost 10 30 so ya. i get to go to my dasd tonight and get some more gits and i get to see me own grandparents and the cousisns i think...i spent cousins wrong didn't i? the keys are sticking...just thought ii'd let you know.. scone is aposta call me today..thats a good thing but isort of don't want to talk on teh phone...maybe once i get home an dhe calls i'll feel differantly...maybe...oh ya and i got to books...a child called it an dthe sequal to it...did i spell seaqual wrong? sorry if i did....i spelt towles wrong before. um so ya i guess thast it for now...i'm now gonna copy past this to my blog.....just cuz i can...loser < btw i copy pasted that from my journal at blurty.com...go read it myy username is dvus...if you don't know why thats my username then don't ask i don't feel like explainig myself to you....OH and another thing that is basically the same! i hate explainig meself! when people IM ME asking who i am! thast stupid! they are liek hey who ar eyou?! and they expect me to answer them when i don't know they are?! thats retarded!people are stupid! like louie or w/e he' slliek who are you your on my b/l an di'm liek ya what do you want me to do about it?!?! an dhe's liek blah blah blah blah blahblah blah blah tel me *wine wine cry cry babble babble wine* ugh god! and then i had to wait forever to see who he was! thats is just stupid! and then they get all upset and whinie when i don't tell them who i am when i don't even have to...liek i said i hate explaining mysel to people..so if i somehow end up on your STUPID b/l don't talk to me...and if your SO stupid as to do so do this....: hello i'm a tart and i wish to know how you are, but before you tell me please let me tell you who i am...and then i can eaitehr respond with ok prosied or no go away...if i say go away then DO SO! if i say prosssseeed then state your FULL NAME! like Robbert Joeseph Tarterpie the full name no abreaviations i hat ethat! i don't need to know your name is Joe C ok cuz i don't care..i need your full name so if i know you i can identifie you and either be rude or slightly kind to you! and don't call me snobyor i'll rip out your throte! now leave!


btw i don't care if i misspelled thimngs because i hat eyou and i don't care what you think! so go die you worthless piece of nothing!!!!!!!!!

lets see if that works....

ok so I was lookin through my older poems to see if I could find one to pass in tomorrow for English and all of them have self mutilation in them so I think the teacher and or teachers may get like all *oh no!* on me and send me to the shrink, even tho she don't even help, 'cause I've been to see her before so ya... But w/e I'll give them the least um..Hate full one altho this one talks about killing people...Like 'cuse they made fun of me or w/e...But oh well

all of a sudden I feel really depressed like super depressed
I really feel like I want to die or something...And I think I'm addicted to self mutilation but I donno...cuz that really doesn't make sense to me. How I could be hooked on something like that...Plus I mean it's not the conventional sort of self mutilation...But w/e anyways..I'm off...Tootles

# posted by monica @ 6:46 PM

oh well I guess something is up with this thin' but I don't know what it is....But it's pissin' me off. 'cause when I post/ publish things sometimes it don't um..Post or publish it I guess...Ugh..It's so agitating ya know? Like the other day I wrote this big ass entry thing that wasn't to huge but still not small and it didn't post it..I was so angry.

in other news- Liz is gonna kick me ass -_-. Cuz I didn't bring our *notesias* ..(I donno how to spell it because it's Spanish...But anyways it means news)..Ok but ya I was aposta..But I was so bad today I wanted to kill myself again *no lie* and well I was aposta bring them for myself, Liz, and Jen..And now I feel really bad -_-.

in other other news- Liz and Jen were aposta talk to *Steve* today but I don't know if they are still going to 'cause I forgot the stuff, plus Liz is a bit of a procrastinator and Jen don't really know me.....So I donno ? '_' ? But I wish they did....Only thing is....I heard he's a fuckin a-hole...But I'll live...And also if he's like most guys over there....Then he ain't getting nothing because really...L find human contact *of a sexual nature* just fuckin gross now...It's not wrong..I just think gross..Just because I don't really like people.

also I think I'm getting sick -_-. *coff*

# posted by monica @ 8:57 AM